Storms

Well, it's a quiet night here at my house. This week has been full of self reflection and headaches. I, for the first time in my life, feel thankful for the storm that I'm weathering right now. Usually when I have a difficult time, I get annoyed and then realize the reason I went through the problem in the first place...I learned a lesson. This is a time in life when I am learning a ton about myself...I'm thankful for that! I'm learning about my family...I'm thankful for that! I'm learning that God doesn't orchestrate everything in my life, but he holds it all in His hands. He will take a crummy situation and make it into a a distant memory. He is bigger than all of the ridiculous things that I worry about and I'm learning that I am being rewarded for living my life the way I do, even though it may not seem like it at certain points. I've always said that "man will always fail you, but God never will." I think I should get that tattooed on my forehead. I rely on man too much. I rely on self assurance instead of assurance from the one who already knows how everything is going to play out. I need to strengthen my faith and try to see others the way that God sees them.